Identity Crisis

When I was young, I rode horses. I rode them a lot! I jumped on and would take to the woods to ride! Then I was enrolled in English riding classes that were focused on jumping. I still rode the woods at the ranch but I began to develop some skills! I taught the old horses (they were just trail horses) new things and just adapted to their skills. After a year of English classes, I was granted my first horse!!!! He was a green broke Appaloosa that was race bred. This is when I began to develop my identity!

TJ was a smart, stubborn, but teachable horse. He taught me more about myself that I even realized at the time. I hung out with the barrel racers and the team penners. We had so much fun!!!! I bought my first project horse as a junior in high school. Gypsy was something else. I had to learn how to train a totally different way. Yet I was still a barrel racer. Many horses later, Gabe came into my life. Another one that would do just about anything I asked. We barrel raced. We sorted cattle. We rode trails. We taught lessons. We would randomly go help bring up a herd of cattle. Yet my classification was barrel racer.

Lynx was born and ended up with me just before I was pregnant with my only child. He was broke broke broke. A little quirky but so much fun! I took my 9 months off to cook my baby in my belly as motion sickness really kept me from riding. As soon as I was released, I found a way to ride Lynx, Gabe, Joe and Trip. Trip and Joe eventually were sold and Gabe injured himself in a bad way. Lynx was my only mount! We began to enter the races! I was so excited about how he moved up in the world of barrel racing. He took me places I had never gone. We won things that I never dreamed of winning. I have had a few since Lynx began his career but no horse was like LYNX. I was a barrel racer and we were a team!!!

Lynx is now 16. Lynx has been on and off for the last two years. We have raced maybe 5 times in the last two years. My barrel racer identity has been revoked. Whiskey came into my life a year ago and I’m anxiously awaiting the day I get to swing my leg over him! Currently, my classification is “riding coach”.

I’m am experiencing an identity crisis. I don’t know what Whiskey will be when he grows up. I cannot currently handle taking on another horse. Gabe and Lynx are retired in my pasture. I have two others to give lessons with and honestly, I don’t feel any joy to ride the lesson horses. I want to ride the colt.

This month I will turn 44. I never thought that I would cash in the barrel racing card. Honestly, I never thought Lynx would be down and out. I’m doing my best to turn him out. Let him be a horse. Let time heal. On the flip side, I feel that I may never be at the level of barrel racing that I was with Lynx. Oddly, I’m ok with that. If Whiskey has any desire to chase cans, we will do it. But I really want to learn a new trade. I’m a little exited and a little scared of what that means. But it’s ok. God has his plans. Trusting God to give me direction is really hard. I have to do it! Who knows? I might be a stellar showman!!! Whiskey might light a new fire in me to go show on cattle! I always liked to go team penning! I always liked to play on cattle! Maybe that is our path? Maybe a new door is opening? Only time will tell! I guess this is my midlife crisis??? I have even been looking at stock saddles and gear. My trailer is even ready to roll to a show. Now to get the horse ready to roll to a show!!!

Whiskey aka “Skeet Rey Scott”

ITS HOT YALL!!

Normally, during the summer, we switch to 7-8am lessons and 7-8 pm lessons. However, this July is excessively HOT. We are supposed to get a cool down after the 14th of July.

I have edited my work schedule to reflect this excessive heat. I don’t want to pause lessons. After watching my morning lesson student get sick after her 8am lesson and seeing that it is 105° at 7pm, I cannot put my students or horses at risk in this extreme heat!

Please pray for rain! Thank you for understanding. Remember, I’m keeping my riders and horses safe.

I See The Light!

I promised I would update before and after my surgery! The surgery was for sure needed on my shoulder. I had some tearing of my labrum and my rotator cuff. I had bone spurs on my clavicle that was, in fact, wearing on my rotator cuff. If this situation is like my left shoulder, I assume that when I was kicked in the chest last September, inflammation then formed in my shoulder on the side I was kicked leading to persistent irritation! Same thing happened in my left! They also removed my bicep tendon and anchored it to the bone vs the joint capsule!

Anyhow, it has been a little over two weeks and my shoulder is still in a sling! I do get out of my sling on May 6. I will be limited on weight. Right now, I’m not allowed to lift anything with my right arm. Eventually I will work up to five pounds etc. But, I’m doing pretty good! As long as I don’t physically use my right arm, all is well!

For lessons— I am wanting to start back the first week of May for those that can saddle the horse! If the rider cannot swing the saddle, I will either need parental help or message me so we can make sure Hannah can be there! I won’t be able to handle more than one student at a time. If there is a family with two riders, message me so I can have Hannah there! I miss my students! This will be a slow process and I will be feeling my self out to see what I can handle so please be patient! ❤️